Dead

Crying.... I'm crying now. My tears drop from my eyes uncontrollably and wet my face.I really don't know what to do. Anyone could understand me? NO!! Even my parents, family and friends.. They all are not understand me. No one will listen to me. I think I'm just here for annoying them. Maybe I'm not a really good daughter or a nice friend for them. As I said in my last post, I'm useless. I realised that I'm not important in this world even in this family. I didn't mean to blame anyone of you at here. I'm just blaming myself. Maybe I'm not worthy for them to care about. I just feel like to cry now. Maybe things be will okay after this. But, I'm dead now.....

USELESS

I'm useless.. Yea.. I'm really useless, very useless.. just back home from the song practice. Once again, I become moody. I keep thinking why, why and why?? Hundred and thousands why appear in my mind? Why I'm so useless? Why I cant try my best in doing everything? Why I can't do my best like others done??? What for I was born to this world? I can't even done a small thing successfully? Is success disappear in my dictionary? People say: "Be confident to yourself." I really don't have the power to be confident to myself. I just feel that I'm useless. I can do nothing now. I don't have the passion to do everything right now. When problems come toward me, I can't face it. Maybe I'm too weak to do so. I'm really disappointed to myself. I need some friends listen to me now. A TRUE FRIEND is enough.

****useless****

Thank You

I've just arrive home. I went to buy clothes for the music festival with biao, henry, ching and yung just now. Just wanna to say thousands of thanks to biao because he has picked us up from school and sent us home. Thanks Henry too for accompany us. Thanks for u guys advice and support.

THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCHII~!!^^

Emo

It's 1.15am now. and I'm still sitting in front my laptop. I didn't feel like to sleep yet. I'm trying to study Sejarah for Excel II but I cant even concentrate at all. I didn't even finish reading 1 chapter. Terrible... My emotions keep changing this few weeks. I can be very happy at this moment but being moody at the next seconds. I'm easy to feel annoying with the noise around. Maybe stress cause these to happen. I'm totally stressed. Exam.. and many other factors cause me feel stressed. About my friends.. some of them have changed. I'm not sure. Maybe I think too much. But not only I feel that. Someone agree with me too. I'm not going to mention who are them. That's not important. But friendship is precious. Please appreciate it.. okay..

04.09.09

Wow.. It's September now. I feel like didn't update my blog for such a long time. Currently having excel II now. Phew.. Finally finish biology and chemistry paper. Really stressed. Just now after choir practice at church, I went Brown Ambience with Biao and Susu. A new cafe? hmm.. I think is cafe gua.. haha.. Anyway, it's a nice try.. The food is taste and not very expansive. Have a try at there.. Quite nice^^ Quartet Music Festival is coming soon.. next Saturday. This is my group and the members.

-Loveway-