God, where are u???

God, where are u? I feel myself is very far away from God now. This few weeks, I didn't devotion and read bible. I think it's because of too many things happened and make me can't concentrate and focus on God. hmm.. Love really some hurts so much. Don't love someone and give ur love to someone easily before u think clearly. Don't give someone promise if u don't really think that u can keep it. Don't let yourself have the chance to regret whatever u did. God, I need u.. I need u to wipe my tears.. I need u to carry me when I'm tired..

Come holy spirit falls on me now
I need ur annoiting come with ur power
I lover u holy spirit
u're captivating my soul
and everyday I grow to love u more
I'm reaching for ur heart
u hold my life in ur hand
drawing me closer to u
I feel ur power renew
Nothing compares to this place
where I can see u face to face
I worship u in spirit and in truth

-come hoy spirit-

對的人

你問在我心中　是否還苦惱
那次受傷　否決了愛的好
謝謝你的關照　我一切都好
一個人　不算困擾

愛雖然很美妙　
卻不能為了寂寞
又陷了泥沼

愛要耐心等待　
仔細尋找　感覺很重要
寧可空白了手　
等候一次　真心的擁抱
我相信在這個世界上一定會遇到
對的人出現在眼角

那次流過的淚　讓我學習到
如何祝福　如何轉身不要
在眼淚體會到　與自己擁抱
愛不是一種需要　是一種對照

能願意為了一份愛付出去多少
然後得到多少並不計較
當我想清楚的時候　
我就算已經準備好
放手去愛　海闊天高　 ......

There's still a lie between a believe?

Is it there is still a lie between a believe? I think maybe.. Maybe we can't believe everyone in 100% because u are not believed by others too. But we must trust in out Awesome God in 100%. God never lie us. God is the only one that we could live for. Live for GOD but not others because God gives us truly LOVE. Talk to God whenever u're happy, sad, disappointed..anything.. He will give u what is the best because He loves u. Pray more...

祷告因为我渺小

祷告因为我知道我需要

明瞭你心意对我重要

祷告已假装不了

祷告因为你的爱我需要

你关怀 我走过的你都明白

有些事我只想要对你说

因你比任何人都爱我

痛苦从眼中流下

我知道你为我擦

在早晨我也要来对你说

主耶稣今天我为你活

所需要的力量你天天赐给我

你恩典够我用

A ...??? Sunday

Today can wake up a bit late because no need early to church for practice song. Biao and me have decided to leave praise team after July. The main reason is the attitude of the worship leader. We really cant stand anymore. He really don't understand us and don't know what we want. He makes us so hate him. Everyone don't like his attitude even aunty Siew Moi also said so. We already "no heart" to stay at praise team anymore. I think we'll focus on youth praise team and others youth events. But I think xing and cheng won't leave praise. Hope them will be happy to serving God at there.

I'm still very sad. But I didn't show any emotion on my face because I don't want my friends to worry about me. I just laugh and crazy together with them especially my church friends. They bring many happiness to me. They always make silly jokes and play around. I'm happy to be friend with them. But the only thing that i can do now is pray. Let God to plan for me...

Youth Birthday Party~~!!!

Actually today is a school day. Quite boring at school.. Saturday still need to wake up early in the morning.. sigh~ But today at school we had an excuse to skip class as we help joan to make the backdrop.. We never stay at class from the 1st period until the last period.. haha.. After school, Biao, Puppet and me go to buy present for tonight's activity. We arrive home at 3pm and go to church at 4pm. Really tired... Tonight we really have fun during youth gathering. Cooking, singing, playing games... feel so crazy tonight.. haha.. But the birthday cake is spoiled by puppet's younger brother.. Nevermind.. It's specail..!! lolxx.. I can stop thinking my own stuff and sadness during that time.. Their crazy laughing and silly action make me laugh too:p But sure I'll never forget about him. I'll wait!! I believe that he won't break his promises easily.. well.. feel sleepy now.. Time to sleep~ NitezzZZZZZzzzzz....

Love..? Promises..? Forever...?

What is love actually? Love makes us happy or make us sad? Do u belive a FOREVER LOVE? My friend told me never believe forever. I have no idea. Do u belive love with promises? " I won't leave u alone.. I will love u forever no matter what happen....."... But I'm sure that LOVE from GOD is forever and everlasting.

"Love is patient and kind;

Love does not envy or boast;

it is not arrogant or rude.

It does not insist on its own way:

It is not irritable or resentful;

It does not rejoice at wrongdoing,

but rejoices with the truth.

Love bears al things.

believe all things,

hope all things,

endures all things.

Love never ends."

1 corinthians 13:4-8

This is what LOVE means.

I'm quite happy today because I have be back friend with Li Ting. We are best friend in form 1 and 2. But something happened and misunderstood between each other.. we din talk at al since form 3 until today. Today is her birthday. I great her through text message. Because of the greating, we are friend agian.. haha.. Thanks God!

Tears of Sadness

Again, tears of sadness dropped from my eyes.. I tried not to think about that but I really can't do it.

Well, don't talk about that anymore. I just know that Henry will go to JB to have his futher study at 17th July. He is going far away from us.. Of course we will miss him and never forget him..hehe.. Actually, he stays at KK now, working.. But he will leave soon. So miss the time that we serve God together at Basel Sing Kang church.. Gambateh!!!

First Post

Hi.. Nice to meet evryone of u.. Let me introduce myself 1st.. I'm vui yuan, a 17 years old simple girl.. Nothing special actually..

This few days, I was very sad. I've no mood to do anything. I'm sure my close friends know what had happened to me. Last week at school, I cant pay any attention when teacher was teaching. I didn't pass up any homework. Just keep thinking of my problem and can't stop crying.. I really don't know what to do except cry. My friends are worrying about me.. I'm sorry to make them worry.. Really thanks them very much..

Audrey- Always there for me when i need her. She always comforts me and helps me a lot. But I'm sorry because I always make her sad. She always see me crying there and she will feel upset. But I really cant control my tears dropping down from my eyes. Sorry.. Thanks God for giving me a friend such like Audrey. Thanks, Audrey.

Yee Ting- Always gives advice to me and shares her experiences with me. whenever any problems with me, I will find her and she never ignore me. Last week almost every morning before the lessons start, I find her. Her class is just above my class. Thanks, Yee TIng.

Ming Chen- He cares about me and asked me to find me if got any problems. He tried to comfort me and asked me not to think too much. He helps me a lot too. Thanks, Ming Chen.

Janice- Accompany me when I was crying. She just sits beside me and accompany me. She also asked me not to cry when it is not clear. Thanks, Janice.

Chang- He cares about me too although we just know each other last year. He is a caring friend. He asked me not to think too much and don't waste my tears because it is not worth. But I think that what I've done even my tears are worth. Sorry.. Thanks, Chang.

Really thanks for their support and caring. I don't know what will i do if they are not being with me. I really got think want to end my life before that because I really can't stand with it anymore. I told Audrey. She scolded me. She has waken me up.

Now, I'm still very sad. I can't recover it. I really don't know what happened. Just let it be..??? I can't do that...