Words for Biao

I've just visited Biao's blog and I saw 'letter for yuan'. Thanks very much ya Biao. Ya.. I know that family is important for us. That day I was really very angry so I said some nonsense. Hmm.. Sometimes I really didn't treat my family very well. I felt sorry to them. I've not experience the situation like you so I didn't realize how important family is. But I will appreciate every moment with them from now. I know that I will never get it back if I lose it. Thanks for your concern and advice ya.. Don't get disappointed too ya.. I'll seek for your help when I'm in trouble so on with u ya.. I can be your listener too^^ By the way, I still love panda very much. Thanks for the picture. very cute~!! Cheers for your happiness too o.. Gambateh~!!^^

Thank You.

Combine of SIng Kang Youth and Indah Anglican Youth

The line is very lag now. I'll upload other pictures next time^^

Sharing by Ref. Ho from IAC

Games time~

Praise time~!!

From the left: Biao, Ching, Jessie, Ah Yan, Me

Praise and worship

Ice Breaking

Here some pictures during the gathering.

What mood am I in?

Yea.. There's a question. What mood am I in now? I've just arrived home from youth fellowship combine with Indah Anglican at our church and after that yum cha at Jesselton. The gathering is quite funny and not bad. Indah Anglican's youths are very active by the way. We have a long chat at Jesselton and Laugh Out Loud. Lol~ But happy mood changed when I arrive home. My mum scolded me. The reason is my brother again.... She asked me why don't bring along him home and why don't call her. How I know all this thing.. I've just finished the gathering.. okay.. This make me start to dislike them. Every time I get scold is because of YOU. Can you be a responsible person? Can you arrange your own thing properly? Can you don't ask me to fetch you every time after youth fellowship? You think people's car is bus ar???!! Please lar... I'm really pissed off!!! Although I seems like having a "prefect" family.. It's just looked like.. It's empty inside!! I try to be patient all the time.. I've tried and tried.. I really can't stand it anymore!! Please stop blaming me because of HIM!! They didn't give me the family feel anymore. Family? What is family?? Maybe it is not important to me. I'm always the wrong one and they are always the right one. I hate.. I really HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Biao's Birthday Pictures

Encore~!!

Family~^^

Wow.. Empty leh..

Surprise~!!!

Yummy~!!

During night time

Writing birthday card

wah.. susu looks excited!!

LOL..

Which brand.. huh??

See.. What we wanna buy for him.. haha

These are the processes we choosing Biao's birthday present.^^

RAINING

Wow.. It's raining heavily now. I can feel the strong wind although I'm staying at my room. The loud thunder sound and raining sound. There has been such a long time didn't rain like this. Hmm.. feel so good. And I'm listening the song "下雨天" by 南拳妈妈. I love the lyric very very much. It is so meaningful and the song is nice. I love it~!!^^

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴
期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累
怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我 能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴
其实 没有我你分不清那些彻别
接近还能多一些
别说你会难过 别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

Holidays

Holidays are going to end soon. Umm.. so fast.. seems like not enough for me but kinda boring during holidays. Eat, sleep, online.... Having meaningless days and doing meaningless things. I think today is more meaningful than the past days. Today our church's youths combine practice songs with Indah Anglican's youths for tomorrow's combine praise and worship. Maybe we are not familiar with the style they use. Hmm.. feel like so messy. Maybe the drummer, Adrian is too pro.. so.. Yea.. Tomorrow we will have combine fellowship. Don't know how will it be. But just let it bah..^^ Just arrived home and nothing to do again. Study?? Lazy.. I'm not in the mood although there is exam after open school. Now, I'm waiting the time past and go to church for choir practice tonight. really meaningless.. =.=

Memories~

At the top of Tshun Ngen Hill

Song practice time

Stay at church till midnight for preparing the next day event

On the way to 3G camp

Kundasang's trip (3 years ago)

Look so young.. haha

Here are some old pictures 2 or 3 years ago. I miss that time and hope they are still the same and never change. Times we chat together, play together and fool around.. I miss~

Bored

ARRrrrr... So bored ar.. Nothing to do and I just sit in front of the computer. Holidays are really boring without going anywhere and hang out with some friends. I want to study for preparing SPM but I'm too lazy to do so. lol.. Yesterday was very happy but today is boring. Hmm.. I've nothing to write and I still not yet get the photos. So, still can't upload at here. =.= I'm going to sleep early today.. NitezzZZzz........

Biao's birthday

Yea.. 21.09.09 is Biao's birthday. I've just arrived home. Just now hanging out with Biao and celebrate his birthday. Many people just now.. Xing, Susu, Ching, Puppet, Henry, Meteor, David, Bing, Cheng, Tony, Joshua, Dick.... In the morning, me, Xing, Susu, Henry, Ching, Puppet and Cheng went out to choose Biao's birthday present. The most funniest thing that happened is...

My phone rang..

Susu: Halo, yuan ar? where are u all now o?

Me : Eating at Ah Meng there o.. U know at where, right?

Susu: Yaya. My sister and I are coming now.

Me : okok. Bye.

After a few minutes, my phone rang again.

Susu: Ei, u say that Ah Meng at where o?

Me : At indah there o.

Susu: lol... I went Moon and Star...

Me : haha.. Not there lar...

They went Moon and Star because our church member, Ah Ming's shop. So she misunderstood. We all laughed for such a long time. lol

After eating, we continue to buy the present. We went many places. Then, we have our lunch at Xing's home before we back.

At night, we celebrate Biao's birthday at Formosa. Steambot at there. It's quite expensive. RM15 per set. We didn't really get full after eating. And of course a birthday cake for him. After that, we went sing K at Encore. Not all of them joined. Ching, Joshua, Henry, Puppet, David, Tony, Dick are those who joined. Yeah!! sing again... After singing, they planned to have supper but all the shops are closed. =.= I will upload the photos later. Hope Biao really happy and enjoyed..^^ Happy Birthday and all the best ya, Biao~!!^^

MV

This is the first MV made by Sing Kang's youth (Biao, Puppet, Ching, Bing, David, amd me). This video is recorded at the seaside of Kudut at June during the break time of camp. We went Kudat for camping. During the break time, we walk around and we realised that Kudat is a really small city. Life at there is quite boring. At that time, we did a lot of crazy stuff but I think taking the MV is the most craziest stuff we did. It's full of memories. Really feel so happy being with them.^^

Nothing to do

Today Sunday service end quite early. So we also back home earlier. We didn't out to lunch because many restaurants are closed. I've just finished my lunch and nothing to do now. Then, I just sign in my blog and write something. I'm waiting the time to pass now and then go jogging with friends later. lol.. Hmm.. Let's talk about Liew Jhing because he asked me to write about him when I chat with him in msn last night. haha.. He is my church friend and he is studying at KL now. He is a tall and thin guy. funny... Except tall and thin, I don't know what can describe about him. Oh ya, he has a nice and good gf. I think some of you know who is that. haha.. That's all I can say about him^^

Rainy Day

Rainy day is here today. The weather gives me a comfortable feel. Maybe it has been long time didn't rain like today. I spent the whole afternoon at church office today. I feel bored and nothing to do at home. I helped pastor to arrange the church members' information. Biao and I stay at there until 4pm. We chat with pastor. Pastor is so lonely because his wife and children at KK now and he is alone at home. haha.. Then, we go to church again at 5.30pm for tonight's praise and worship practice. Tonight we have our special dinner prepared by pastor. Normally we don't have dinner at Saturday night. Tonight youth fellowship was quite less people. I think maybe it's rainy day and some of them went travelling. Tonight's event is okay and we have learned something from it. The fellowship end quite early tonight. After that, Biao, Ching, Dick and me went yum cha at mile 4 pasar. We chat a lot and laugh a lot. Xing, Susu, Henry and Cheng them didn't join us. Maybe they are not free or busying their own stuff? Whatever.. They seems like refuse to join us. Some of our friends become more stranger to us and act like a STRANGER for us. Sometimes, I really feel so angry and speechless. Isn't saying 'HI' or a smile are so hard?? Actually, things do not need to be like that. They can choose a better way but they don't. Why can't just forget the things that had been happened long time ago?? Why can't just let it be and keep the friendship among us? I really don't know what will happened next and I don't hope this will continue in my life. I miss the time we are being so close and chat a lot but now no more. Sometimes, I feel that they are so fake. I just hope we can share, play, chat..together like last time we did. But now, we can chat until don't have topic to chat. Are friends worth to be trusted? Luckily, I still have a true friend like Biao. He is so good and always give me a hand when I need. That's what we called FRIEND. Hope that our friendship will everlasting. Friends are parts of my life. I will appreciate it. Will u??

Ms. Chong's birthday pictures

Group Photo^^

Make a wish~

Encore~

Pro model.. xD

wow...

Blur blur....

These are some of the pictures taken last night. Forever 18 years old <--- Ms.Chong's quote. haha.. Anyway, it's full of memories. Nice~

Happy Birthday~

Happy Birthday to Ms. Chong Yiing Yiing~!! Wow.. Today is her big day and we gave her a surprise. First, we told her that tonight we'll bring some food to her house for celebrate her birthday and ask her to cancel tonight tuition class. Then she just simpy say okay. But actually we plan to go out for dinner with her. First, we went her house and act like nothing. Then, we asked her go to change cloth because we need to take picture. After she changed cloth, we directly asked her to go out. haha.. We had our dinner at 'The Boss' and take a lot of pictures there. Then, Ms. Chong, Yennie, Chiew Yee, Kit Mun, Tze Jing, Ying Zhen, En En and me went Encore. Yeah.. Sing Sing Sing~ I love to sing very very much~!!^^ We have fun at there. Feel quite happy. I will upload the pictures later.

Last wish, Happy Birthday Ms. Chong and God blessed^^

Busy Day

Today is a public holiday but I've been busy for the whole day. I woke up 6.50am this morning as I need to attend the extra account class at school. I felt kinda sleepy during the lesson even though 'her' voice is as loud as the thunder. hmm.. even louder than the thunder.. lol.. I slept at 2am last night. The lesson started from 8am to 12pm. After that, me, Joan, Chuin, Janice, Brian, Olivia and Yan Yee went KFC for lunch. We eat until very full. Then, they planned to watch movie at cinema. I didn't feel like joining them at first but I did at last. :) Only 4 of us (me, Brian, Janice and Crystal) went for watching movie. We watched 'The Proposal'. The movie is quite funny and nice. After that, we went 7 heaven. Eat again..=.= I ate frozen yogurt (98% fat free), I think won't fat gua.. hahaha.. We chat a lot at there. Everyone feel like tommorow is still a holiday but it's not. We will have our 1 week holidays next week. We stayed at there till 5pm. I back to my aunt's house in Sentosa. Brian fetched me there. Thanks ya^^ I have my dinner at my aunt's house and chatting around with my cousin who came back from KL. I've learned some piano skills from him. That's cool. haha.. Is today a wonderful day for me? Maybe but not really. Anyway, I felt quite happy today. Well, that's all and I'm going to have a good sleep. NitezZZ......

15.09.09

I've just finished Excel II today. Phew.. Finally finish.. I didn't get good sleep during the exam weeks and I'm really tired after work hard against the exam for 2 weeks. We're free from exam finally. But for 1 week only=.= It's the trial exam a week after open school. so fast.. and then SPM. Wish all the best to my friends who are sitting for SPM this year. Gambateh lo~!!

I recall what had happened on Saturday night (Music Festival Night) after reading Biao's blog just now. Yea.. We planned to go for a drink after the music festival end. But Henry, Meteor, Puppet, Cheng and Ning went away suddenly. Maybe they go somewhere else. I don't know. They just left without telling us and just left a call for us. They left Thomas there. What for bringing him out but not bringing him back huh?? Why cannot just wait for a while? Biao accompanied us till the end. Thanks a lot. After the music festival end, me, biao, ching and dick planned to go for a drink. Dick wanted to eat at pasar. But Biao and me didn't feel like going there. At last, we didn't join them and just back home after having a few round at Indah. We don't have any mood at all that time. Really felt "bu xuang" le.. I don't hope that will happen anymore.

"I miss your smile!" Yee Ting told me today. Hmm.. She said my smile has disappear. Really? Maybe I'm not feeling well last few days. Anyway, thanks for her concern. ^^

Little le le and Me
Susu and Me

Tired

Hmm.. The Quartet Music Festival is over. Quite nice lor. But my group didn't get any prize. HAHAHA.. Never mind.. It doesn't matter. I didn't try and do my best =.= I just feel tired now. My mood is not so good because something is annoying me. Not about the music festival just now actually. Friends or someone.. Really speechless.. Nothing to say and do.. All the things have changed. How could this happened? haih.. Anyway, thanks Ah Ong who always support us. He is a good friend and always comfort me when I'm not feeling well. His words always gives me a lot of encouragement. Thanks Biao also.. He accompany us this few days in preparing our music festival stuff. He fetch us around. Thanks very much.^^

Nervous

Hmm.. It's 12am now. That's mean today is 12/9/09 already. wow.. Quartet Music Festival is here! I'm taking part in it too. I feel nervous. really... Later need to wake up early to prepare all the things. I hope I can do my best~!! Thanks for all my friends who giving me a lot of support.. Thanks all of you..

Love u all~^^

Dead

Crying.... I'm crying now. My tears drop from my eyes uncontrollably and wet my face.I really don't know what to do. Anyone could understand me? NO!! Even my parents, family and friends.. They all are not understand me. No one will listen to me. I think I'm just here for annoying them. Maybe I'm not a really good daughter or a nice friend for them. As I said in my last post, I'm useless. I realised that I'm not important in this world even in this family. I didn't mean to blame anyone of you at here. I'm just blaming myself. Maybe I'm not worthy for them to care about. I just feel like to cry now. Maybe things be will okay after this. But, I'm dead now.....

USELESS

I'm useless.. Yea.. I'm really useless, very useless.. just back home from the song practice. Once again, I become moody. I keep thinking why, why and why?? Hundred and thousands why appear in my mind? Why I'm so useless? Why I cant try my best in doing everything? Why I can't do my best like others done??? What for I was born to this world? I can't even done a small thing successfully? Is success disappear in my dictionary? People say: "Be confident to yourself." I really don't have the power to be confident to myself. I just feel that I'm useless. I can do nothing now. I don't have the passion to do everything right now. When problems come toward me, I can't face it. Maybe I'm too weak to do so. I'm really disappointed to myself. I need some friends listen to me now. A TRUE FRIEND is enough.

****useless****

Thank You

I've just arrive home. I went to buy clothes for the music festival with biao, henry, ching and yung just now. Just wanna to say thousands of thanks to biao because he has picked us up from school and sent us home. Thanks Henry too for accompany us. Thanks for u guys advice and support.

THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCHII~!!^^

Emo

It's 1.15am now. and I'm still sitting in front my laptop. I didn't feel like to sleep yet. I'm trying to study Sejarah for Excel II but I cant even concentrate at all. I didn't even finish reading 1 chapter. Terrible... My emotions keep changing this few weeks. I can be very happy at this moment but being moody at the next seconds. I'm easy to feel annoying with the noise around. Maybe stress cause these to happen. I'm totally stressed. Exam.. and many other factors cause me feel stressed. About my friends.. some of them have changed. I'm not sure. Maybe I think too much. But not only I feel that. Someone agree with me too. I'm not going to mention who are them. That's not important. But friendship is precious. Please appreciate it.. okay..

04.09.09

Wow.. It's September now. I feel like didn't update my blog for such a long time. Currently having excel II now. Phew.. Finally finish biology and chemistry paper. Really stressed. Just now after choir practice at church, I went Brown Ambience with Biao and Susu. A new cafe? hmm.. I think is cafe gua.. haha.. Anyway, it's a nice try.. The food is taste and not very expansive. Have a try at there.. Quite nice^^ Quartet Music Festival is coming soon.. next Saturday. This is my group and the members.

-Loveway-